May have to give up coffee...

3 times this week I have dozed off and spilled hot coffee...in my lap. That's definitely one way to wake yourself up but it's not really recommended. It's also bad for the furniture...thank goodness we have a (fake) leather couch.

I just can't help it and the coffee doesn't really help you wake me up, I just like to drink it. It's my time to relax, watch some TV and drink a hot beverage before the day starts. Too bad my mind won't stay awake long enough to finish one cup at a time.

Oh, who am I kidding? I'll just start wearing a wetsuit to drink coffee.

No such thing as a hate crime

Why do we classify certain crimes as hate crimes and assign a harsher punishment than others? I'd say there's a good chance that anyone that commits a crime has hate inside them so why are we sentencing to the intent and not the crime? We need more consistency in our punishments and murder is murder, no matter what your age, race or gender.

It's not really fair to classify a crime against a non-white person as any worse than another.

Still feeling regret

I'm so tired of being broke within 2 days of payday and constantly explaining to Josh why we can't do or have things.

I'm tired of working 2 jobs and still barely making ends meet when I could be in a much more comfortable position if I'd just moved to Cincinnati when my job transferred.

It sucks living this way and always wondering "what if"!

Life (kinda) sucks right now...

I'll admit that there are times, lately, when I see my facebook friends post about how great things are going and I get jealous. Wondering when this hellish chapter post-CMC is going to get better. Oh, it's not horrible. We aren't homeless, we can pay the bills (sort of)...it's just not what I'd hoped it would be and doesn't seem to be getting any better.

I had hoped that, at 37 years of age, I was beyond having to work 2 jobs just to make ends meet and still being broke within 2 days of pay day. I know what's causing it but the only way to resolve that issue is to get rid of Josh. I just can't afford him. Heck, I never really could and that is why I'm in this position.

Of course, losing 50% of my income when I was laid off didn't help at all but I was so sure I was going to be able to find a better job with more money by now. It's humbling to find that you really aren't what people are looking for, even with experience and endorsement from people that are high up in their company.

I'm back in the dredges and don't really like it. Actually, I wouldn't mind my job if the percentage of the company that sucks at theirs wasn't so high. It's like it's acceptable to be mediocre and there is nobody to address and correct problems when they happen.

"You didn't bother to look at the forecast for the next 2 months and now we've been late on every order for the last year because you don't know how to appropriately hire people to cover the demand? That's ok, no need to discipline you...you're human. We'll just let you keep on making this mistake so we can never dig out of this hole. Never mind all the customers and business that we are losing. It's not a big deal."

Seriously, that is the mentality. At least that's how it appears to those of us that are directly impacted by the late orders and horrible service.

Frustrated

I can't help but wonder why the genes of my ex husband became the dominant genes that are exhibited by my 15 year old son. He hasn't been around him for 10 years yet he acts more like him each day. He's completely lazy and blames others for everything that goes wrong. He's extremely short tempered and flat out refuses anything that could make life better or is suggested by others.

Wait, that's not my ex...that's just my kid being a douche bag! Sounds bad to call him that but there are times when that is the only word that I can think of that adequately describes how big of a jerk he is.