Life (kinda) sucks right now...

I'll admit that there are times, lately, when I see my facebook friends post about how great things are going and I get jealous. Wondering when this hellish chapter post-CMC is going to get better. Oh, it's not horrible. We aren't homeless, we can pay the bills (sort of)...it's just not what I'd hoped it would be and doesn't seem to be getting any better.

I had hoped that, at 37 years of age, I was beyond having to work 2 jobs just to make ends meet and still being broke within 2 days of pay day. I know what's causing it but the only way to resolve that issue is to get rid of Josh. I just can't afford him. Heck, I never really could and that is why I'm in this position.

Of course, losing 50% of my income when I was laid off didn't help at all but I was so sure I was going to be able to find a better job with more money by now. It's humbling to find that you really aren't what people are looking for, even with experience and endorsement from people that are high up in their company.

I'm back in the dredges and don't really like it. Actually, I wouldn't mind my job if the percentage of the company that sucks at theirs wasn't so high. It's like it's acceptable to be mediocre and there is nobody to address and correct problems when they happen.

"You didn't bother to look at the forecast for the next 2 months and now we've been late on every order for the last year because you don't know how to appropriately hire people to cover the demand? That's ok, no need to discipline you...you're human. We'll just let you keep on making this mistake so we can never dig out of this hole. Never mind all the customers and business that we are losing. It's not a big deal."

Seriously, that is the mentality. At least that's how it appears to those of us that are directly impacted by the late orders and horrible service.

Frustrated

I can't help but wonder why the genes of my ex husband became the dominant genes that are exhibited by my 15 year old son. He hasn't been around him for 10 years yet he acts more like him each day. He's completely lazy and blames others for everything that goes wrong. He's extremely short tempered and flat out refuses anything that could make life better or is suggested by others.

Wait, that's not my ex...that's just my kid being a douche bag! Sounds bad to call him that but there are times when that is the only word that I can think of that adequately describes how big of a jerk he is.